Ishita's POV :
I check my neck in mirror and i see
Raman's reflection in mirror
He standing jst behind me...
He comes close to me...
He brushes his lips to my neck where i place my finger to chk my neck...
I turn my side...
And without waste single min i take his lips to mine...
He doesn't respond...
Hey what happen jaan Raman separate himself and asks me...
Nothing just a dream...sorry i say to him...
Don't be sorry i know it gonna be happen one day he says to me looking upset
No no esa kuch nahi hoga (No it wont happen) i knw how much u love me Raman...
Hmmm i love u but how can i trust on myself...
I go near him...cups his face...
Hey plz look in my eyes plz Raman
Nothing gonna be happen trust me nothing gonna be happen...
He hugs me tight as there is no tommrow...
After some time we brake hug...
Raman touches his forehead to mine...
Only u can control me ishita...only you
I love u and love u love so much...
I can see pain in his eyes...
Raman i love u too...
This time Raman takes lead
he catches my lips into his...
Our tongues plays with each other...
While kissing
I slowly slowly drag Raman to my bed...
I open his shirt button...
He deeply engross in kiss...
Raman is now shirtless...
We fall on bed...Raman on top of me...his hands moving on all over my body...
i open Raman's paint button...
Bang
He suddenly push me to the edge of bed and he jumps off from bed...
I cant ishita i cant
mujhse... control nahi hoga...(i cant control Ishita)
i cant hurt you
Ahhh...
I hurt not bcoz of Raman bcoz of edge of bed...
Hey hey he comesclose to me...
Sorry ye sab meri wajah se(sorry this is all bcoz of me).ishita how could i do this to you...he says feeling guilty
I put finger on his lips...no Raman mistake is mine mujhe thoda sabar karna chahiye(i have to lil control) ...but ur smell
Ur smell drive me crazy...
He smiles and says waise ye lines meri honi chahiye thi ishita (btw this line should be mine )
tumhe laga to nahi (are you hurt ??)
thoda sa laga hai...(lil bit )
Kaha kaha chalo doctor ke pass (show me where lets go to the doc)
Or doctor ko jake kya kahenge ki...(and what we ll say to doc )
Ki...
Ki kiss karte time aage kuch ...mood nhi hua or...(thing is we were kissing and after carried on We ddnt get Mood to continue and )
Bus bus kitni shameless hoti ja rhi ho tum (enough How shamless you become )
I laugh...
he slowly slowly caresses where i got mark bcoz of edge...
i close my eyes bcoz now its paining
Ishita i think tetanus injection lagega
No no No injection...
Are loha(iron) ki lagi hai look pura mark hai...(look its iron mark you should take tetanus injection )
No Raman mujhe injection se dar lagta hai...ye apne aap thik ho jaega...( i m scare from injection this ll automatically heal)
He laughes actuly he rofl...
Whats so funny Raman...i ask him
Tumhe injection se dar lagta hai...i cant beleive...tum darti bhi ho...I mean Mujhse pyar karne main dar nahi laga or jara si needle se dar lagta hai
(u scared from injection i cant beleive Actully You scare from anything I mean You never scare to love me and you scared from lil needle )
I hit on his chest... so mean Raman...
I love u...and u make fun of me...
Jao main tumse baat nahi larti Or aaj ke baad mujhse milne ki ya mere ghar aane ki jarurat nahi (go i wnt talk to you and Dont come my home from and no need to meet me )
i getup and abt to move...
he grabs my hand and pulls me near to him...
Ms. Ishita Dcurze aaj to kah diya ab mat kahna i never ever leave u remember this till my last breathe i m with u
Tumse baate karunga...
Tumhe roj gudnight kiss diya karunga...
Ese hi tumhe sota hua dekhunga...
tumahare sapno me aaya karunga...
Tum jindgi ho meri or ese hi koi apni jindgi se dur kaise rah sakta hai ishita.
(Ms .ishita Dcruze what u just said,just said but never said this again i never ever leave u remember this till my last breathe i am with u
I ll talk to you, I ll give you goodnight Kiss daily,i ll See you when u sleep,i ll come to your dream,you are my life and how can anybody ll away from his life)
Raman tum jante ho mujhe kaise rulana hai(Raman you know how to make me cry ) i ask him while wiping my tears just appears after listing him
he wipes my tear and says lets get ready i ll meet you at college directly...byee love u...
Bye love u too...plz call me when ll you reach home i m waiting...
He laughes....ok mam anything else
He opens window and escape from there...
I close window comes to front of mirror...
chk myself again in mirror...
Ishita Dcruze
Or Ishita Raman Bhalla...
When ll raman agree for this when i ll write Bhalla instead of Dcruze
I sit on my bed and remember my journey with Raman...
**********Flashback************
Goa :
To change city or house
It is such a simple word to say, but who knows that it could have so many definitions
For me, moving to another City or house is painful.
I had grown up here in the city of beaches Goa, but of course I also have short stays with my papa,
Sudheer Dcruze in his house in the city of lakes and clouds Dehradoon during vacations when the temperature in the city is too cold and intolerable for a human's body...
All my childhood memories are in this house in Goa and this room that I am sleeping singing and growing and god know what at is probably one of the luxuries that I can at least have all to myself
And not to mention, all the people I can call my friends -being the quiet person, if you get to know me i m nature loving girl...but lil reserved...
That's why it is very hard for me to move out new place and make new friends...
It's not the people or the house I am going to miss, but also the beauty of beaches ,sand sculptureg, nature and lively environment that the city of Goa has even at night. But it's not a decision I have to make for myself, because if it is, I would have just not agreed to this insane idea.
I have to do this for my Maa and for Papa...
I love her and I want her to have full time to her social events not to worry about me...she always leave her work bcoz of me...
she was ex Miss Goa ,so many celebrities knows her...her events...her chains of boutique...lots of works...but she ignore all when i am at home and i don't want that she suffer loss bcoz of me...i don't know why she cares me alot an extra care...
So, no matter how saw I am and don't want to move, I have to move for Mom and For Paa.
It's for the best.
Plus, I would get some quilty time to spend with my Papa who I only get to meet during vacations. And when he came to stay in Goawith us once in year only 2 or 3 days...
Sighing, I pushed the sheets away from my body and I jumped out of the bed, yawning. I stretched my arms and legs and yawned before I see and rub my sleepless eyes front of mirror
I walk over my room window and open it, the bright, blinding rays of the sun greeting my eyes making me close it out of instincts. When I adjust to the overwhelming lights, I blink my eyes a few times as I overlook the view of Goa from my room's...
Sadness overwhelm me again
Knock knock
A knock come in my door, snapping me out of my daydream. I turn my head towards the door,
"Good morning, ishita." uth gayi beti tu (you wake up )...Maa smiles warmly at me as she enters in my room.
"Good morning, Maaa."
"beta jaana jaruri hai kya...Mera nuksaan hota hai to hone de mujhe fark nahi padta
(Its necessary to go if its loses me then let it be i dnt care ) ?"
She started...again
I nod my head with a give a forced smile. "Yes, jaana jaruri hai...sirf aapke liye nahi papa ke liye bhi ye decision liya hai...main shower leke aati hu then ready to leave.(yes its necessary Not for you only for papa too i just came to take shower then ready to leave )
Maa bobbed her head up and down in understanding, "thik hai niche aa jana jaldi breakfast karne and aaj no apple in breakfast samjhi naa (ok just came down quickly and today No apple in breakfast do you understand ???)
""Okay." I tell her and she gives me one last smile before she leave the door, closing the door behind her with a huge slam.
I go to the bathroom to take a warm shower that would surely help me relax for my long trip later.
I dried my hair with towel walk towards my small closet.
I finally decide to wear something warm I knew too well that Dehradoon is a place where it rains frequently and the atmosphere is cold.
I came down from stairs to dining table for breakfast
.
We sat on tables and i enjoying the delicious food in frot of me i dnt feel to conscious today for my diet because I'm going to miss Maa's cooking
I look up to meet my Mom's eyes but was surprise when I see that tears were already brimming in her eyes and ready to fall down like rivers.
"Maa?" I ask through a mouthful, "Are you alright?"
She nods, wiping the tears, "haaa main theek hu bus tuhje bahut miss karungi betaa...(yes i m ok will miss you badly )
""ooo maa main jayada door thodi na jaa rhi hu plz aap ro mat warna main jaa nahi paungi or rougi to jhuriya aa jaegi chehre par...miss ex Goa..
(Oh Mom i am not going too far and plz if u cry its hard me to see you like this and go plz dont cry otherwise u ll get wrinkles miss ex Goa )
She laughs while she successfully wipes the tears, "ok ok but roj kam se kam 10 baar phone karna...(ok ok But atleast call me 10 times in a day )
I nods with smile, " promise"
I finish remaining BF...
Maa readily smiles at me without uttering a single word or tear the rest of the time I eat and it made me more sad, but I just ignore it.
after 15 min
"Chale beta warna late ho jaaega"(lets go otherwise u ll be late )
"Yes." I breath out, trying my hardest to fight the river like tears of mine, and eventually i win. I walk out of the dining table and let my suitcase with me
Maa maine cab manga li hai plz
Aap mat aana warna main jaa nahi paungi...plz... (maa i called Cab you no need to come with me otherwise i wnt able to go plz)
She somehow agrees...
A black cab was parked in our driveway, i put my suitcase and turns towards mom
Bhulna mat din me 10 baar call karma..., okay"(dont forget 10 times call remember okay )
a tear slipping from her left eye
"I promise pkka wala promise..." I tell her and take her in bone crushing hug... afterbreak hug , i give her sad smile and slip in cab.
She waves back at me, and now this time tears flowing like rivers from her eyes. same with mine and look last glance at housebefore the Cab finally drove off.
I had a feeling that moving to Dehradoon can change my life forever...
sorry for mistakes hope u like it
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